Thursday, November 20, 2008

living life

Today I went down to BYU for a little Christmas shopping. I got a 20% coupon in the mail the other day and I decided to use it sooner rather than later. But shopping at BYU isn't really what this post is about. You see in the back of my mind I have always thought that if you took away my kids that go with me everywhere and put on some clothes that were actually in style, I would still fit in with the college crowd. I would still look like them. Today I felt old. I don't fit in anymore. I swear it seems only a couple of years ago that I graduated. It has been ten years. Where did that time go? I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror and I did not see a skinny freshman. I saw a mom with a "mom" body. It didn't depress me, it was just a reminder of where I am in life.

The other day I was talking to my sister-in-law Michelle and I was telling her that I still feel like I am a new mom. When I talk to moms with only one or two kids I feel like I am one of them, but I am not. I am a mom with 4 kids! How did that happen? Didn't I just have Taylor a few years ago? What happened to all that time since then?

I have always known that time flies quickly. When people tell me to enjoy my kids now because they grow up so fast I have never doubted that. They are growing up fast. Faster than I ever imagined they could. Every once in awhile I will catch myself saying things like "As soon as he does this...." or "It will be so nice when he can..." I have been stopping myself a lot more lately from saying stuff like this. I know it is only a matter of time.

Right now I know where my kids are every night. Right now every single one of them think Scott and I are the best things in the world. Right now they are soaking up whatever we tell them like a sponge.


Right now he would rather throw the football with me than with any of his other friends.


Right now this kid says the sweetest things and I see my 5 year old chubby cheeks on him.


Right now his personality is blossoming and he makes me laugh with his ever-growing vocabulary.


Right now I can't get enough of this one. I really could smell him and hold him all day long.

Right now they are all mine.

7 comments:

Lisa said...

Kids are so much work but they are the greatest most wonderful thing in your life. Aren't you happy to know that you are sealed to these beautiful children for eternity.

Sarah said...

They are so cute! It is easy to think if only they could... Or when they do this...., etc. It's hard to remember to enjoy the moments that are happening now, they won't happen again. Thanks for the reminder. I still feel like a new mom too.

Larsen said...

That was so cute Tiera. I am glad that you are slowing down a realizing what you have, even for just a moment. They are yours.

Amber said...

I know how you feel. I love my kids, and I haveto continually tell myself to slow down and enjoy them. I forget a lot of times how old they really are, especially since they are ahead of the game intelligently, I forget they are younger.

I too go looking around, and think...hmmm if only I put on some cool cloths I can fit right in...WRONG. I still shudder at the thought of going into the "Grandma Stores" as I like to call it, but I can't shop at the "cool" stores either like Vanity or the like. I guess I just haveto admit that Im old.

Saratoga Six said...

So sweet. I am also realizing that I endured my first mothering years too much so now I'm enjoying them before they are gone!

Dangcutekids said...

You are the best mom. What a great ticket system, and of course darling boys. You make me thankful to be a mom, at home. Who wants to be one of those skinny freshmen without a handsome husband and great kids anyway? :)

Anonymous said...

Oh... you make me laugh. I have had similar things lately. Like sitting around a table at "Fabulous Friday" talking to some of the Young Women in my ward and they started the "cup game" from camp days, and they couldn't remember it. I just joined in and taught them all how it goes. I felt like it was just last year. But the look in their faces was like pure amazement that I even knew what they were talking about. Oh yeah. I am a middle-age mom with 5 kids. Should've known.