This is very strange for me. Like many of you, I've had a child by my side for many, many years. 14 1/2 years to be exact, with the longest stretch of alone time last school year being about 3 hours. And even when I have a few hours of quiet time, Scott works at home so I am rarely truly alone. Contrast that with this past summer of non-stop door bell ringing and friends coming in and out and it is like night and day over here.
And you know what? Even though, there is a little bit of sadness and happiness mixed in, I'm ok with it. Is it going to be different and it is going to take some getting used to, that is for sure. And to be honest, I think it will take awhile for me to adjust and figure out my schedule and my role while the kids are in school. Right now I feel a little lost. But, I am also looking forward to some uninterrupted quiet time. It has been a long time since I have had that. I have projects that I have put off that I am excited to start on.
Ever since Chasey was born, Scott and I knew he was our last baby. Maybe because of this or maybe for another reason, I have always thoroughly enjoyed every stage that he has been in. I have never wished away the hard parts or the sick and snotty parts. Sure, there was some sadness when I took down the crib and he lost his baby smell, and grew out of newborn clothes. But as he has passed onto later stages I have been ok moving on.
I'm not quite sure what I'm trying to say here. I guess I feel the same way when I blogged about Chasey graduating from K last spring.
I am doing my best to enjoy and be grateful for every stage of life that I am in.
5 comments:
Good attitude since none of us can turn back the clock even if we want to......where's Taylor's first day of school pix, or is he too old for that!
You are a great mom. I can't imagine being in the stage you are in right now.
I'm in the same boat with you once again. "Lost" is a good word, but I have a good sense of diretion and will find my way soon enough. It's only been 2 days and I'm a bit baffled not to be interrupted by my people. I can actually finish a thought without having to get back to it.
Time to make a list and "GO"!! They'll be home in a few hours and the chaos will be back.
Loved this post and your perspective. I agree 110%. Enjoy every stage. Never wish away or regret. Good job completing so many projects while they WERE around. Can't wait to see what you do when they are away. Savor the family time when it happens
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